Daddy's Quilt

I started with something like this pair of worn out jeans

then I cut them into squares

Then I sew'd them into strips

And then sew'd the strips together

I have been working on my daddy' quilt for a while now and I am about half way done with the patchwork. :)

One year ago today

One year ago I got the most precious gift. My Baby girl. My Princess. After two boys (who I do love) I finally had my girl. And now a year later my baby girl has become even more adorable with her own personality. And I enjoy her being in my life everyday. Happy Birthday princess.

my baby and her babies

I thought it had gotten awful quiet in my normaly chatty daughters room so when I went to investigate I found this. My baby and all her babies she apparently talked herself to sleep :D

Books and lonelyness

As a mommy of 3 you can imagine I am sure that I don't have a lot of time to read. Not nearly as much as I would like considering I have been known to read from the time I wake up to the time I go to bed stopping only for stuff like food since I don't want to muss the pages of my books with yucky fingers. Just the same though I always have a book started, I can take a break read a chapter and be good to go. Today however I am lonely I finished Breaking dawn (again) last night and it is always so final when you get to the end of a series of books. I rather enjoy living in Forks with all my vampire and werewolf (Shapeshifter) friends, but then I also Loveing living at Hogwarts, and on Pern, and even in Xanth. The truth is I love haveing that window that I can peer into to see another world or even my own world just from a different view. So when I don't have a book started do you see why I say I am lonely? I think I am going to go read about Elizabeth and Mr. Darcy again *grins*

a good feeling

So I am in my own apartment, my kids are asleep, my house is quiet, I am warm in my jammies listening to some beautiful piano music thanks to http://www.pandora.com and the joys of high speed internet and dispite the fact that things have been going wrong right and left in my life I am content right now. It is a good feeling to feel especialy durring the hectic time that is holiday season. I am nearly content enough to start writing again which will be a good thing as I have not wrote a thing since Septemeber and it is now nearly January.

I know some of you have read this already but this for those of you who read this that just Don't have it *laughs*

I am haveing a pissy day or maybe week or month even I am SO DONE with living here luckily all my stuff is home so I can go home after Christmas but honestly if it weren't for the fact that my grandparents are going to be here I'd just go home now. I am over being a doormat for everyone to place the blame on. "Oh it is her fault" Or "it is just to many kids" or any other number of things I have heard lately. Last I checked I did not sign up for maid detail and the fact that I have cleaned this ENTIRE house from top to bottom today really pisses me off because WE were supposed to do it but WE turned into da da da da ME grr ok i am going to go kill something on a video game or maybe read to get un pissed i don't mean to rant i just had to let off some steam

I'm Tired

I'm Tired of being walked on, taken advantage of and in general being the person that no one remembers. I remember as a kid I was exurberant to the point of annoying, as I grew up I got quieter almost as if when I was born God said "here this is all the exuberance you will ever need" and I got bigger my supply starting wearing out and now here I am 25 I can talk to someone in the morning and by the afternoon I have faded from their mind. I watch my older sister and sometimes wonder why I can't be like her. Confidant in my life and where my path is takeing me. Even with my husband he tells me that I need to stop worrying about what people think and just DO what it is I want to do. In my life I am surrounded by strong women with strong sences of self purpose, my sister, sister in law ( all of them) even my best friends are all like that which makes me wonder why on earth I am not. I suppose we coudl argue you are how you see your self and in my case I suppose that is true I just want to know WHEN did I start seeing myself as the mouse instead of the lion?