September 11 2001 we all know this day, it was the day that changed a lot things about our world. It was a culture shock to me, things would never go back to the way they were. I turned 18 10 days later and went to boot camp in January 2002 didn't make it through apparently running is necessary lol. March 2002 "Met" first husband "A" fell in love and married him in November after he got done with boot camp and all that I was now a Navy wife, I moved from my home and everyone/everything I knew to Corona California to start my new life, soon moved to Coronado so A and I could be together easier, It wasn't easy and in 2004 we divorced. That was the year I got into bad things that could have gotten me into a lot of trouble had I gotten caught. That was also the year I became a mom. July 29 2004 the turning point in my life. Up until that point it had been me me me, now I had Boo and was a single mom time to grow up huh? I started school still rather much in the same self imposed prison shell I confined myself to in High School to afraid of what others thought to enjoy myself. While in school I reconnected with an old flame "J" and rekindled that old flame and November 2005 I got married again (seeing a trend with November?) As with a lot marriages now a days I was pregnant when we got married and in June 2006 we got a happy healthy baby boy L. J's and my marriage was rocky for many reasons a lot of them mine but a lot his as well. And being the intelligent people that we are we thought another baby could help us and no sooner did we talk about it then my stubborn princess made her way past the pill and in January 2008 she was born LOL but things did not change and in 2009 J moved us from Vegas back to Pahrump where I got my first real job since school and we got our divorce. This is where I REALLY started to grow as a person, I met Kuma and we fell in love fast (like we are talking weeks here) but instead of being half of a couple he encouraged me to be me first, he brought out the real me and I am sure some days everyone (including him) wish he had not awakened the pain in the butt I really can be. I still have my days where I am insecure and I am nearly always Highly emotional but hiding my emotions for well over 10 years and suddenly being free to express my self well I go a lil crazy now and then. Here we are Kuma and I have been together 21 months as of yesterday and I am engaged again only this time, its the real thing for better and for worse all the way, we have weathered hardships together already and thanks to him I know I can handle anything life throws my way and I can look forward to the next ten years knowing when I sit here and type then I am going to be saying "WOW what a ride!" LOL
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
I just had my ten year high school reunion had a lot of fun and now that it is over I have been sitting and reflecting how I have changed in ten years, how life has changed in ten years. Ten years ago I was 17, freshly graduated and high on life, ready to go into the Army after one last summer of fun.
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Guys just move on you don't want to read this LoL.
Ok Ladies as you all know I sell Avon so I brag about it anyway but this stuff is truely AWESOME in the past I have used Nair and learned that I have a major reaction to it so I have been shaving my legs with good ol' Shaving cream and razor, BLEH what a pain right? So when I saw Avon had a "Skin so Soft Hair removal cream" you bet I bought it! I did the test patch just to be safe and had no issue then I went ahead and used it on my legs and OMG it is fantastic just a few minutes and then wipe off with a wet rag and my legs were smoother than any razor ever got them! It has been 3 days since I used it, no razor burn, and I am only just now getting a teeny bit of stubble. This stuff is GREAT and I 100% endorse it. It is cheaper than razors, shaving cream, even some wax kits, it is less painful than waxing, no chance of cutting yourself, and no buying razors.
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
I am writing this 6 days before she turns 3 and I will show this to her probably in 13 years. I am cracking up at my silly girl. She is under the impression (I have no clue where she came up with this lol) That she is a princess and I am ok with that. My Princess will wear her "Princess dress" (A black and blue tutu I bought around Halloween) With her Pajama's, her blue jeans, anything. She Loves her "Pretties" (all her play jewelry), She like having "Pretties" on her face (Mommy's Make-up), and having her hair done "All Pretty". Pretty is a big party of my Princess's world. She can make your heart melt just by saying 3 words and it isn't the normal ones that will make a parent turn to mush it is "I need you" Her way of saying "I just need a hug right now" She already has a love for all things Chocolate, all things Pink (including piggies), and all things shiny. At times I fear I have a diva on my hands but she is my diva and at least she listens to her mommy (at least for now) She "Absolutely loves" the cartoon Eloise and looks at clouds and asks if that is where the care bears are. I love her childhood innocence and look forward to her birthdays to come. I hope this one is magical and memorable even if she is only three. Her dad and I (who just recently divorced) along with two of our friends are taking her to Disneyland. It is for her and her brother that J and I put aside our differences and can get together for things such as birthday's I hope that both of them know how much we both love them.
Monday, January 3, 2011
Alright the new year is here and time to make some goals
Financial Goal- I am going to get my finances in order. I can't count how many months I have freaked out because I am juggling to much and not controlling what I spend. That ends today.
Self Improvement goal- I am going to live for me. Obviously I have kids so there is only so much living for me I can do but I am going to take "X" amount of time most likely a half hour or something somewhere in which I will read, take a bath, maybe go for a walk something that is for me and not with someone else I deserve a little me time and by golly I am going to take it! :)
Relationship goal-well I have not firmly set this one but something is going to change I can not continue in the path we are in now. Love goes so far then it takes work and well I won't air all my dirty laundry here but lets just say I need a little more.
Work Goal- I am going to start each work day with a positive attitude. I am going to let the trivial stuff that bugs me, roll off my back because if I let people bother me then I am giving them control of me. Be it a co-worker or a customer, even if I have to count to ten 50 times a day I will control my temper and thereby making work that much more enjoyable.
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
First if you really know me or are related to me let me assure you nothing is wrong I am still me and have not been abducted by aliens or whatever. Also if I offend anyone well how to put this gently... I am not forcing you to read this so get over it and move on. Now on to my rant.
Rules. I like rules, they are there for a reason weather or not you think that reason or rule is silly, it has a purpose. It may-be to keep you safe, to keep others safe, or just because the person in charge wanted it that way for a reason of their own. I do wonder about some wacky laws like how in Georgia it is illegal to tie a giraffe to a telephone pole or street lamp. But you know that law or rule is there for a reason. I don't like it when people take it upon themselves to decide that they know better than the rules. Some people think that just because that rule does not fit in with what they want to do then it is not necessary or meaningful and so they bend, break, or just flat out ignore the rule. For example (this is only an example not real that I know of) a restaurant closes at 9 every night, well one night they close at 8:30 because they want to go home, the boss never checks on them that late so it is no big deal right? Well that night the boss brings a VIP by and sees that they are closed and suddenly everyone looses in this situation the Boss possibly looses the respect of the VIP and the workers all loose respect of their Boss if not their jobs as well. All because they closed a half hour early. It wasn't a major rule only 30 minutes but it had major consequences. There are times where nothing would have happened the boss could have not shown up and nothing would have happened all would be fine, but it could have been avoided perhaps by calling the boss or what not.
I guess that is my rant thanks for reading :)
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Ok so what would you do if the person who asked to take your kids trick or treating while you worked took all of their "good candy" you know the candy that when you were a kid you shouted "SCORE!!!" when you saw it. The chocolate bars, Smarties, sugar babies, etc. Well some people have said "well how old are the kids, if they are young enough they won't notice" Well my youngest is nearly 3 and the oldest is 6 and let me tell you HE did notice! Now here is another question what do you do when the person who did this was someone close to your family may even one day be family and have watched the kids for 3 years off and on? I am sickened I know full well she might read this and I am fine with that because I can't think of what I want to say I am so mad. I mean what is a mom to do when she finds out that the 9 hours a day that she HAS to be away from her kids so she can pay for a house for them to live in her kids are being yelled at all day even on Halloween when kids are meant to be kids, be rowdy. They spent their Halloween being yelled at to "Shut up, just shut up" or "Sit down right now" My Kids are not monsters even if that is what I call them, I call them monsters as a term of endearment. Kuma, and I went to the store day after Halloween and bought $20.00 of 50% off candy and the other person watching the kids on Halloween (how I know what all happened) bought them each a bag of candy so in all the kids made out like bandits but it doesn't change the fact that someone they all love literally stole candy from them... What would you do if you were in my place?